POST 50!

finally i finished my 50 post Performance task and i hope i get credit. The troubles just to finish this is overwhelming and made me nervous. I thank everyone who reads my blogs and view them and i thank my self especially  for not procrastinating and getting this done before 5. im looking at my clock and i still have 47 minutes left to spare and im just so glad to get this done i thought i was going to break down because of all the other stuff i have to do for the other class's. I JUST HOPE THAT MY ENTRIES WILL BE ACCEPTED I JUST WANT THIS TO GET OVER WITH :(

Field Day

So field day is coming up next week i believe and i can't wait for it since its the first for the whole year. Last year when i was a freshman we had two field days, one at the beginning of the school year and the second on the last week of school. I had fun and i hope that this field day im having next week will top the last 2 from last year. Their are events taking place during the field day. I signed up for the 50 yard dash and 100 yard dash and all the other events except the crab walk. I'm hoping i do good in the race since I've been in track im thinking i'll be in between 4-6th place since there are some people i know that run FAST.

Valentines day a few months ago

Well there was this chick that i liked alot since we met back in freshman class and kept it a secret till my friends found out. So i asked her out the day after the last  day of school and sadly i was rejected. I was shooken down, but i didn't care because i knew this would happen and would come to no surprise. She told me she liked someone else and i found out who it was and was going to ask her out at the beginning of the year. During summer break he decided and got himself a girlfriend and she got pissed. I was just thinking " The Irony!" since i asked out her and was rejected only to find out that my friend that she like got himself a girlfriend. My friend was a year older than her. I don't plan on asking her again and have lost most of my feelings for her. I still like her, but not that much as i did last year. So valentines i see if she wants to go out with me, but without me asking her out which she didn't and i just gave up on her because there are a million other fish in the sea.

Carpal Tunnel

When i had a Carpal Tunnel it was just plain horrible it felt as if someone decided to put a rubber ball in my finger joints (wasn't hurting) and stiffen them. When i had it i always tried bending my finger and it felt like a chunk of meat was blocking it or blown. Basically my finger joints were swollen; it was mostly my right index finger and middle finger and my left thumb. It was probably because of playing WoW alot back then. I got the Carpal Tunnel back in january when my mom got me WoW as a birthday present.  I was being a nerd and playing it all day and night till i got to level 54 and got bored of it. When i think about it i never want to experience stiffness ever because in general i hate stiffness like in games when your characters don't have fluid movements and are stiff when doing something.

Gentle

I'm a gentle person with great friends, but don't talk to them as much  because i don't view myself as worthy to talk for them or because i feel uncomfortable. I'm shy around a group of friends that talk about sports and music and stuff. Although I may seem like i'm a gentle person it doesn't mean i get flared up; reason why is because i have years of anger in me and tend on keeping in me till i explode and see the last of my days. I'm amazing a poems and writings and good at my class's. But, my life is never intentioned for good things during my present times like lets say getting a girlfriend or talking to friends in group without feeling awkard. Think of me as the modern day nerd...

Post 45

Okay so i'm half way to getting my posts done and have to send the link to my blog to my teacher so she can check it. I have to send her the link to my blog before 5 O'clock; since my blogs are dated she would know what blogs are after 5 and will be considered invalid. So today was a bad day because its the beginning of the week for Performance tasks that is a big chunk of my grade.  My knuckles hurt from punching the wall and my head ache still hasn't gotten away although the event that just occurred was just a few minutes ago. See even im trying to make myself laugh to cheer me up.

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By god i get pissed at my mom because im trying to do my performance task and if i don't pass it in i fail for the 4th quarter and i get so frustrated tears run down and i punch the wall and she justs laugh. That is really **** up and im usually a gentle person, but im pressured to do this or i don't become a junior. I just got a headache because i tell them i HAVE to do this, but they take it any other day as if i were the same gentle person and they can push me around. NO! this is serious things and i have to get this done well i lost count of how many posts i've done and have to recheck again. Erf i hate it when i get angry and when i get angry purposely from something seriouse... i even tried choking myself from the frustration guys. There is just SO MUCH PRESSURE ON ME TO GET THIS DONE!